Deja Vu

Hi!
I just realize that I got a Deja Vu. OK no need to explain what is Deja Vu 'cause I think you already know what is it.
So, what's my Deja Vu?
That's the question. And I'm gonna answer it here.

But first I wanna ask you.
What are you gonna do when you get a Deja Vu in your life?
My answer?
I'm so confused. Why? because this kind of Deja Vu is a repeat-moment.
Yes. Repeat-Moment.
But that's exactly the meaning of this phrase. Deja Vu = Repeat Moment.

And what moment is it?
Ha! it's the next question.

Okay I know I'm pleonastic.
So let's go to the point.

I met men.
Yes. that's the answer.
Who?
The Men that have similar relationship with my past. The moments are so similar with my past. But with different men.

This is my second Deja Vu actually. That's why it's "Men", not "Man"

In My First Deja Vu, I faced 2 choices. Change the way, or let it flow.
I decided to let it flow.

Until today, tonight, I realize that I just got my second Deja Vu.

I'm so confused.
What should I do?
If I let it flow, will it be over like my past? I don't want it.
But if I change the way, what will happen? It's so uncertain.
I'm so confused.
I need to tell my best friend about this.
But my best friend right now is my first Deja Vu.
If I tell him, it means I choose the number two, 'let it flow'. Because in the past, I told my best friend too about this. Not about the Deja Vu, but about my feeling to him, my second Deja Vu.

Yep! It's about feeling.
Love? No, I don't think so.
My second Deja Vu. He's so comfortable when I'm next to him. I feel that I'm completely a girl when I'm next to him. The way he talks to me, the way he helps me, the way he listens to me, the way he.....treats me. It makes me feel so comfy.
He's weird, tbh. But he knows how to treat a girl.

If I decide to take a distance with him, I... Idk what will happen with my feeling.

I told my best friend to be my resistor, but it isn't enough.
Ugh! I'm so confused.!

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I have a best friend. He's so nice. Almost every day we text each other. Talk about everything, but mostly about his girlfriend (Yes he has a girlfriend, so don't try to mock me with him!).
He asks me to tell him some advices to face his problems, and I do so.
He asks me to join in his project, and I do so.
He wants me to do something to him, and I do so.
We are so close in the class. He's so nice. Yeah, nice.

And lately, someone was coming.
He's in a group with me on RL class.
We take a frequently discussion once a week. We are getting closer. Until I'm feeling so comfy when I'm next to him.

Until I realize that my relationship with my best friend have a little distance. Tonight.

I just told my best friend about what happened to me. I told him that I just got a Deja Vu and I'm confused. He asked me what happened but I'm too confused to arrange the words to tell him via text.
So I decided to tell him directly in the class tomorrow.

Hope he can help me.
Hope I'm gonna get an exact resistor.

This is a great weekend anyway. I got so much laughs with my pals this weekend. I'm so happy. Super happy. Thank God. Alhamdulillah :)
Should I write about my weekend right here?
Uhmmm I think it's gonna be so long to write down. And too complicated to tell haha.


Well, have a nice dream. ;)

Sincerely,
Ismidita

How Do You Do?

Hi.
Ummm... What should I say right now? LOL okay.

Hi. Welcome to my blog!

It's my second blog actually. The first one? No, I deleted it. ;) (no need to tell you my reason :p)
So, I made this blog to share what I want to share. To be honest, I want to share about my pictures that I upload on my Instagram account (@ismidita). I want to share about the "behind the scene" of my pictures, the journey when I take the pictures, and many more.

Only about the gallery?
No. No, of course. Perhaps I'll post about my life experience which I think it's interested to share to you all. My college life, my friendship life, my cuisine life (lol let's see later), and maybe there will be another category of it.

Well, let's see what will I post right here. Hope it'll be good for you all.
Ah! Yeah, my name is Ismidita. It's nice to share with you all. How do you do?