If I Stay

So here I am again. With my new label, Movies.

I just watched If I Stay. Here's the trailer:

It's a romance movie.
I cried in the end, OMG! :'D
It's so rare. I seldom to cry on something haha.
This movie is so beautiful. The main story is like a Korean Drama, tbh. But the presentment is different. Not so rambling, it's to the point.

It's a musical movie too. Classical, and Rock and Roll.
When a cello combine with guitar. So beautiful.

What I got in this movie are:

  "When the difference is combined."

  "When you get something what you want but you have a consequence that you have to lose something what you love."

  "When you fell like you lose everything then you feel so desperate, but you still have many things."

  "When you realize that you have family and people who love you."

And...

  "When the music of love saves your life."


You need to watch this. :)

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I told my Deja Vu to watch this. I texted him right after watching this movie. And then I know a reality, that we're starting to go to our own direction. We're not as close as a month ago. Sadden, I know.
Well, yeah, he texted me back. But you can't say it's a sentence. Those just words and symbols. He only texted me back with a word or a symbol, every time I texted him tonight.
It hurts, tbh.
I miss him. I miss our friendship.

Who's to blame?
Who's staying away first?
Me? Him?
Idk!
Did I do something wrong?
OMG!

What are you gonna do when you lose "someone" for the second time, huh?

Sincerely,
-Ismidita.

Partner

I wanna have a partner.
A partner to share with.
A partner who understand me, not at all but at least someone who knows me.
Someone who I could spend my spare time with.
Someone who I could tell about my hobby.
Someone who LISTEN to me.

I wanna have a partner.
A partner who I can ask to join me to take a walk.
A partner who I can ask to join me to capture incredible things in this amazing world.
Someone who understand about photography.

Yes.
It's all about photography, tbh.
I just had a news that an iger from my town just passed away.
I wanna tell it to someone, but who??
Idk who's my friend who knows him?

And many more, tbh.
About things I could share. About things I like. About things that make me happy.
About what I did. About what I'm gonna do. About my thoughts. About my dreams.

I wanna have a partner.

But at least I had you.
I HAD you.

Dear you,
hope you'll always fine right there. Hope you'll reach every single dream you dream. I've loved you, my dear. Hope you'll always be happy with her.

Sincerely,
-Ismidita :)

Move On

Andrew, my friend, told me to move on.

I tell him about my story. He knows that I love someone who doesn't love me back.

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"What do you think if I want to be close to someone just because I only want to talk to her?" he asked me that day.
"Hmmm... as far as you're free, that's ok,"
"But I'm not free," he refuted.
"That's your matter then," I said casually.
"Wuuu..!"
"Haha" I chuckles.

But deep inside I thought about it. I decided to ask him about it.

"Is she her?"
"What?"
"The girl you meant,"
"Oh... Who?"
"Her."
"Who?!" He forced me.
"That girl. OMG I don't know how to spell her initial."
"Tell me the clock."
"Uhm... 3 from me."
He smiled, "yes."
I knew it!

"She's nice," He continued, "I like to talk to her. She's smart, she knows how to answer. She's comfort to talk to."

Comfort to talk to? What do you mean with 'Comfort to talk to' , huh?! What about me all this time? What about all our conversations about our thoughts? What about YOU who often ask MY ADVICE??
WHAT DO YOU MEAN, HUH?!

But that's all only on my mind.
And he just smiled right there. Thinking about his own mind.

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"Andreeeww.... Huhuhuuu..." I came to Andrew after school.
"What happened?" He confused.
"He just told me that he wanna be with her," I puled on him.
"Wait, what?"
"He told me, that he feel comfort every time he's around her. He told me she's nice to talk to."
Andrew chuckled, "Let him go then, only if you wanna see him happy."
I was gloomy when I heard that.
"Move on. He wanna be with her, not you, so move on. Don't torture your own feeling."
"But I need someone else so I can move on." I defended myself.
He smiled, "I can be that someone."
"Wuuu...!!" I thew him my fist.

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Don't tell me that I could choose Andrew. NO! He has a girlfriend, man. Prettier than me. So don't you ever ask me to choose Andrew. Never!

Him.
I know he's not good for me. But he's my Deja Vu. He's all what I was looking for.
But when you found something that you look for, and don't want to own it. OMG this is the most absurd feeling I ever had!
I don't like this feeling.
C'mon Dita, Andrew is right. I have to move on.
You know he's not good for you, for your study, so MOVE ON!
MOVE ON!

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Sincerely,
-Ismidita (._.)